Fairy Tale endings...

As a young child I recall dreaming of my "prince charming" that would sweep me away and carry me on his white horse into the sunset.   Some image huh?  By reading fairy tales such as Snow White and Cinderella little girls imagine the man they marry will have these strong, brave, romantic qualities as did Prince Charming.  At the age of 25 I began to think there was no such thing as "prince charming." I began to look at the life around me and see all of my "friends" were getting married and having children.  Here I was, way behind the "game" and heart broken.  .......Along came a spider

"I had it all"....so I thought.  We had a popular social life, community workers, educated, and "in love."  But with what?  The concept of the lifestyle that was being lead?  Perhaps.  We were not rich by any means but with no children we had few expenses.

It felt like a dream....like a fairy tale.  But with all fairy tales there is an evil character.  At first I thought Cancer was the evil villain.  He still is evil and took a precious woman from this earth.  During the battle I was "so in love" with the idea of this "prince charming" I had stumbled across.  We traveled, dined out frequently, bought what we desired....you know...the big screen tv that ALL women want...lol.  As the fairy tale continues, prince charming asked the princess to marry him while flying in an airplane overlook Christmas lights in the south.  I mean...how do you say no to that after 8 months of the battle of cancer with his mother, living together, making investments, etc.?

I had the wedding I dreamed about.  The big princess gown, huge church, big bridal party, fancy engagement showers, catered rehearsal dinner, big southern baptist church summer wedding with guests from all over the US, and a reception at the big country club.  The tables were set with 3 ft. tall centerpieces of hydrangea;s, linens.....as I said...and fairy tale...a dream.

We honeymooned at a Sandals in St. Lucia, the Caribbean and had all the luxuries a person could wish for. Life proceeds with this same dynamic.  Home life was another story.  It was not a dream or fairy tale but completely the opposite.  It was dismal.  Our relationship was terrible in every way it could be.  No matter how hard I worked at it, it just never seemed enough.    Down came the rain and washed the Spider out!  Text messages can really get people in trouble.  So can social networking chat.  On the upside, it's WONDERFUL evidence :)    So......I DON'T! 

I still do believe everyone has a true love out there and I may have found mine amidst this fictitious fairy tale I used to live.   Life is what you make of it.  I am very blessed!

Revelations

How fitting of a title?  With the way things are going with the world today it might not be a bad idea, those Christians reading this blog, to open up your bible and read Revelations. I'll get back to why in a minute.  For now lets look at the reason for this blog.  The purpose of this blog is not only to share my experiences with other but also for you to share your thoughts on the subject.  Let's try not to be to harsh if you disagree with the views of myself or others as we would all like to gain knowledge from this site .....knowledge is power.

I had a "revelation" over the Summer that has since altered the entire make up of my life.  One morning I woke up and decided that I was no longer going to go through life depressed, loathing in self pity, angry, naive, deceived, mistreated, unloved, and lied to.  So, what did I do with such a life changing thought?  WELL, I told my husband of 1 year I wanted a divorce, reunited with an old boyfriend from high school, and went on to complete my Master's degree.

The separation occurred in July 2010.  Since then, I'm happily separated from my "husband" and am happily in love with my boyfriend of almost 5 months.  Many people are quick to judge at this point or perhaps even earlier in your reading.  I want to know something before you judge me and tell me all that is wrong, according to the bible, with this:  how does it feel, ladies, when you are lied to daily by someone you "love"?  This could be your child lying daily to you about their drug usage or about being abstinent.  Again, I cannot stress enough that this blog's purpose is for you to find yourself in this crazy thing I call "My Life." 

With these "revelations" and as I enter the new year I notice that the biblical "Revelations" is happening before my eyes!  I'd love to know your thoughts/comments on this statement.  I feel our government is covering up the real reason for the deaths of hundreds of birds not only across the United States but around the world.

As I am only vaguely familiar with other religions, cultures, and beliefs; I am always happy to discover and learn more daily.  Please, if you have any views or comments to share don't hesitate.  I'd love to hear what you have to say.